I've always enjoyed shopping alone, its therapeutic.After every shopping spree i would always get an unexplainable sense of relieve much like having just taken a shower the only difference is shopping gives my soul a shower not my body
It was one Saturday morning when i decided to do grocery shopping.I had walked for a long time and when i got to Shoprite is was full,i thought to myself "Time is money" cant be wasting time in queues so instead i proceeded with my journey to Spar.It was there where i didn't find a lot of queues so i decided to shop there
After long stroll around the market, constant changing of mind " i need this,no i don't"...i had become weary of deciding so i headed to the Till to pay
"Am i going to be able to carry all this i thought to myself as i took out my card to pay " probably not but I'll call a maxi taxi once I'm outside"
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The woman packing my stuff looked at me smiling, then looked the other way and kept on packing,
"i must have thought that out loud" i thought.
"well theres like a lot of hobos outside that would carry your stuff for just about anything" she said..."oh OK" i said with a smile and as i walked away i thought to myself "Hobos! carry my stuff? excuse me! i cant have hobos carry my stuff, i don't trust them"
Battling to carry the heavy load i paused to catch a breath and call a taxi when a woman dressed in all black, well black worn out clothes that looked rather grayish. I halted and looked at this woman, you can call it observing.Wrinkles covered her eyes,hair so filthy covered in grass and a brown hat she smiled at me and said "sesi can i help you carry your stuff"."For how much", i asked...."ai noma yini suster, as long as i can buy something to eat"
I felt so much remorse for her, "shes probably just tyring to feed her children" as i hesitantly handed her some of the plastic bags
"What could have gone wrong for this woman that landed her on the streets, is it her fault?" i asked myself a lot of questions that had no answers, of course!
We had walked a few meters when she paused, leaned down and put my food on the ground.."are you tired" i asked her "because if you are we can always take a break"
Ignoring me she proceeded to the dust bin at the door of a salon,the wind blew so swiftly sending her hat flying, i rushed to catch it and by the time i got it i turned to her , there she was looking through the trash. i saw hope in her eyes and my presence held no distraction to her quest
"Are you looking for something?" i asked..."ya sharp! theres food I'm used to finding in there, someone must have taken them"
I saw the disappointment in her eyes, to an extend i felt it, as though i was going to benefit from whatever she would have got from the trash
I wanted to know about this woman,that in a few minutes got me deep in thoughts and involuntarily connecting to her pain
We had walked a long distance now and i had finally accumulated the courage to ask her questions
I told her my name in hope that she will tell me hers,she turned with a smile, moved her lips but i could not get a word. "You said your name is?" i asked staring directly at her lips in hope that i might be able to read them this time "Gugu" she whispered
"Gugu!" i said with a loud voice and she nodded with a smile. I guess a name doesn't carry much value when you live on the streets, it was probably a shock to her that one would care to know her name.
"where are you from ?" Soweto she said..."its just here right?, I'm from around here" so where are you from she asked me" Limpopo" i said with a proud voice
She looked at me smiled,shook her head said" really? wow! i thought you from Cape Town. I didn't care to ask her why she thought that so i laughed it off and asked her where she lives now
"I sleep just about anywhere....Noma ikuphi! but mostly parks".
Listening to this woman i had come to a conclusion she had a certain level of education.Her English was clear even though the occasional drop of Zulu words she understood me and i got her clearly
"How old are you".."24" she said. "kids?" i asked politely and she shook her head
i was surprised,this girl is one year older than me and looking at her you would swear shes 30 if not 35.
The life on the streets and must have taken a toll on her. I tried holding back my tears which i think i achieved quite well
"Why her?" i asked myself
"How old are you".."24" she said. "kids?" i asked politely and she shook her head
i was surprised,this girl is one year older than me and looking at her you would swear shes 30 if not 35.
The life on the streets and must have taken a toll on her. I tried holding back my tears which i think i achieved quite well
"Why her?" i asked myself
"How do you survive, i mean i cant even walk at night because I'm terrified something bad will happen to me, especially because you are a woman?"
"Now is fine because everyone knows me,it was hard at first i was every boy's relieve system" all the older guys used to rape me until one day i stabbed one of them with a piece of steel bar i had picked up from the street.Now no guys dares to come close to me", she said with an angry voice
I literally froze, i could not believe my ears.Why does this woman trust me with such information? but none the less i kept on listening
"You are right, you should never walk at night,its not safe..this boys will take your belongings and if you don't have anything they will hit you" she warned me and this time she maintained eye contact
I nodded and continued to ask her questions, i wanted to deviate from what she had just told me.It was too much for me to take, I couldn't imagine going through what she went thorough and still be able to look forward to another day
"So why did you leave home"? i asked
"Eish its hard, my sister" this time she took a deep breath and shook her head slowly or rather heavily
I knew what ever it was it must have been bad,she was able to tell me about the rape and the stabbing without any hesitation but this Gugu was holding back
could this be the root of this problem, what eventually led her to the streets?
Stay tuned to find out